I don’t remember ever being this exhausted for a show. I’m probably romanticizing the past because I know I have a tendency to do that. But, I am exhausted. I am exhausted by the stillness and controlled nature of The Countess. I am exhausted by all her justifications. I am exhausted by the logistics of putting up this show. I imagine I’m exhausted in part because I’m challenging myself to do more than I’ve ever done as far as bringing in more design elements to work with. It’s another level of technical skill. I’m a little bit terrified that I have so many students coming to see me perform. I feel this pressure that I need to really “show them the money.” After years of being this sort of archetypal underdog, this expectation that people have for me to be good is, yes, a little bit exhausting.
Logistically, the new set piece looks phenomenal. The additional costume elements are wonderfully creepy. I finally got the damn feathers. I’ve got another page memorized. (Cutting it a little close). I picked up the ridiculously expensive hair product to make my hair have volume. Bought some eye shadow to match the dress. All the set pieces are at the theatre! Thank you Ryan Migge and Jono Lukas! Tomorrow, I’ll get all the costume pieces there as well. Must remember to stretch and really warm up. Sometimes I can be a little impatient about following through with preparation. Finally, my girlfriend reminded me that I should be putting together a press packet. Hoping I didn’t leave any of the donors’ names out of the program on accident.
Sigh. The rest of the week is just the show. No other jobs. Goodnight, Gracie.
