Thought I’d try writing on the other end of the day: morning. Well, things I’m thinking about regarding the show: memorizing, getting the big set piece from my house to BAX, working with the new costume elements, making sure I don’t leave anyone’s name out of the program, being convincing as The Countess. Things I’m thinking about in my life: moving (needing to pack and be out of my place by 4/30), finding the right-sized storage unit, managing my finances as I put up the show, wondering if I will get to spend any time with my friend, Heidi, coming into town to see the show. Things I’m thinking about regarding my career: feeling so appreciative of Marya and Judy, my agent, doing their best to get producers to come, wondering if any producers will come, feeling a tiny bit of self pity (dangerous) that I’m not further along after almost 13 years in New York, reminding myself to think positively and enjoy where I am in this moment.
There is something so very sweet about this moment. Knowing so many of the people that are coming to the show so well. It makes it very intimate and very loving. I really never had an awareness until this residency that there are ‘certain’ people that I should be inviting to my work so that it may move to the ‘next’ level. I really just thought they would happen to see your work eventually, and it would go from there. No one tells you that it is much more strategic than that. Not always. But, often, it seems. I know I’ve probably said this before in this blog. But, I always thought success came for people that were beautiful, rich and/or connected or maybe just lucky. It seems that it is much more of knocking on people’s doors and saying, “Hey, I’m Victoria Libertore. Check out my work. I think you’d like it. I think it’s a good match for what you do at your space.” Of course, to bring it back to Countess Erzsébet Báthory (Elizabeth), it seems that it was her beauty, wealth, connections and a little bit of luck that permitted her to be such a successful serial killer. So, what the hell do I know?
