A rare moment when I don’t know what to say. I’m excited. I’m nervous. I’m working on the business of show business. Figuring out some last numbers as far as expenses so that I can pay everyone this weekend. I have to say, for having not much experience in balancing a budget and even having a budget to put up a show, I feel like I’ve handled the donations very well, paid people fairly and made good use of the money. However, it makes me sad as I’ll be within a few hundred dollars of spending it all on this show. It’s an investment and there are pieces I can keep for the next round. But, the idea of fundraising for another go is a little daunting right now. Maybe I won’t think about that, and just focus on putting up the show tonight. First things first as they say.
I think I have also mentioned this following concept in the blog back in January. But, I’ll say it again. I just remembered the servant archetype. I do a lot of archetypal work in preparation for my performance and while I’m performing. It’s a technique I’ve been developing, and I pass on to my students. While toasting my gluten-free, egg-free waffle, I just remembered the servant archetype. The servant in the best sense: giving. Instead of thinking today/tonight with the opening of the show, “Look at me. Think I’m great. Approve of me,” I simply think (as the servant), “I have a little gift to give you.”
This helps open up my heart and put everything in perspective. But, of course, the audience is also giving me a gift by giving me their time and energy. Well, back to balancing the books, some lunch with my wonderful friends Duck, Andrew and Heidi (who came into town from Chicago for the show), running lines, a light rehearsal, transformation into The Countess and then the show. GO team!
