Soooooooooooo tired. A hard day’s work: accent coach, meeting with Rosalie, costume fitting, memorizing. The costume is coming together beautifully and will partner wonderfully with our set piece that is a work of art! This is good considering that I never gave the costume and set designer a chance to meet. Whoops! But, they both ‘get it’ on a visceral and literal level. I feel very lucky when I get to have days like today. Never mind getting a full day of being an artist. But, to have water come out of my faucets and food in my fridge and a warm bed. The Countess asks in Girl Meat where was their (the alleged 600 girls’) God when I was killing them? I consider myself very spiritual. But, with all my affirmations and visualization of this life for myself (that seem to be working, mind you), why do I get this and why don’t the people of Haiti get their basic needs met? I know I’m not the first person to ask this. It is a childish question in a way: why aren’t things fair? But, the child in me wants to know. I want to know why The Countess killed. Less of why she got away with it. That part seems obvious. She was powerful and rich. But, why did she have this need to kill? And if she was born with it, can we fault her for it?
if you weren’t interested in those questions you wouldn’t be you and you wouldn’t be making the work you make. You want to know why the countess killed, clues, information, guidance.. let’s see where you’ll go with it.